REALISATIONS AND REVELATIONS // 02/11/2015 BY SOPHIE

So recently, a very well known Instagram personality Essena O'Neill decided to remove herself entirely from all forms of social media. She has evoked so much amazing discussion between so many people as well as inspired hundreds to also try and separate themselves from their screens and take a step back into the real world. Essena has always inspired me (looking back on it, and listening to her new words, perhaps in the wrong way. Envy is not a very attractive trait), and now more than ever she has opened my eyes to more reality (I realise that I am perhaps not making very much sense.) Her new content is gorgeous and exposing and I urge everybody to go and look at her website because it is truly 'game changing'.

I've been reading through so many amazingly inspiring thoughts and feel suddenly as though I am largely changing; on some sort of dramatic journey of self discovery and compassion. It all sounds very dramatic. It sounds dramatic to me too- honestly, I don't really know what's going on and everything feels extraordinarily enhanced and vivid. Surreal head space I suppose.

I've been feeling pretty odd recently. It's very difficult to sum up emotions and thoughts when they're so confusing and contradicting, but I've found that reading and watching and gathering new thoughts and ideas from other amazingly magical humans has made me feel somewhat comforted and as though we are all somehow crazily connected in an odd and human and fascinating kind of way.

Isabella Mente (a recently discovered and brilliantly awesome babe) summed up some of her wonderful thoughts claiming that her current state can be described as "A fickle being. Happily sad. Calmly chaotic. Anxiously content. And sluggishly restless." And I have never read anything so relatable and head clearing.
It's okay to contradict yourself, and it's okay not to feel your best and if you're feeling uncomfortable, then maybe you need to find some comfort in your discomfort; familiarise yourself with yourself and try to sit adequately within your own muddled mind.

So I've realised; I should post things because I want to post them and because they come from my head and not because I feel like I should because they're aesthetically pleasing or because I feel like I should post them because "oh God I haven't posted anything for ages and I really need to post something". If I want to connect with people and find new positive energy, then I should start by writing about meaningful things that I actually understand and feel passionately about.

If you were to ask me how I'm doing, I could easily give you a few books full of thoughts and existential crisis's. But I could also answer that I am both inspired and lonely, happy and sad, emotional and blank, and still trying very hard to figure out how on earth this can possibly be.

Sophie x