{We took a trip down to Oxford for two days, one night. The buildings were all gorgeous and extremely photogenic.}
The past few days have been really odd. I've been reading back through my old diaries and notebooks (wow I was a depressed child) and looking back at all the things I've worried about. There are loads.
The past few days have been odd, because I've realised that I've started to feel the way that I used to and I really do not want those feeling to come back.
The new notion that has been introduced however, and that I have proudly named 'the bubble theory' is also adding to this subconscious uncomfortableness. I wrote this down in a diary;
"We live in this bubble town. Everyone thinks that they're older and cooler than they really are. Everyone wants to wear the same shoes and go to the same places and eat the same things. Then those people think that they'd quite like to escape, so they all do it in the same way, with the same people, at the same time. It currently feels like everything is just constantly repeating itself. We're in this big loop of finding ourselves and losing ourselves over and over again.
The next two years (I'm sure), are going to be almost identical to the five years previously (minus a few friends, plus new feelings towards other friends) and it's boring, and I am bored."
I know that 'life's what you make it' and all that, and to a certain extent, I totally agree. But it's really difficult when you're just floating around in a bubble of 'same-ness' and all you want to do is go out and do everything that currently seems completely impossible.
I didn't mean to start on a rant.
Happy weekend- go out and do something different, not just because you think you're being 'different'.
I hope you like the photographs, and thank you all so much for such a positive response to this little space. I hope that it grows, and I hope that I do too.
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