I often find myself thinking about things that I know, but that I don't yet quite know how to apply, or how to feel comfortable with. Self-reflection is both wonderful and mildly terrifying :)
I know that I need to teach myself to wake up happy.
I know that I need to find comfort within my own discomfort.
I know that I need to ensure that I am content with myself as a learning, mistake making human being.
I know that I need to smile more, not look at the ground when I walk down the street, and find a sense of good old pride.
I know that I need to feel worthy and good enough.
I know that I need to realise that I have just as much right to do things and say things as the next person.
I know that I need to make an effort to find people that I connect with.
I know that I need to make an effort to connect with people that I already know.
I know that I need to love my body and my face.
I know that I need to come to terms with the fact that lots of people don't truly understand me and where I'm coming from.
I know that I need to stop complaining about things and just do things.
I know that I need to control my anxiety.
I know that I need to stop worrying about what other people think of me.
I know that I need to realise that I'm never going to please everybody.
I know that I need to stop being envious of people and start doing things that mean that I am entirely content and need no alternative validation. Because if I'm happy, then all is okay.
Let's be honest, the list could go on (for quite a long while).
I suppose what I'm trying to express, is that there are a lot of things that I know I should be doing, but that right now, in this very current moment, I am finding them quite difficult to do. And that's totally ok.
Being aware of something is surely better than being completely ignorant and oblivious to the things that you need to work on. The important thing is that they are going to keep being worked on. And they'll be eventually swapped from 'things that I know but don't really know', to 'things that I know and believe.'
Look up lovelies,
Sophie.
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